I'm very sorry that the years have been unkind to you. For what it's worth, I stopped posting here several years ago myself when--similarly--my adult life took over my creative life. These are hard times in which to be grown up, so I applaud you for sticking with everything. I've been a fan for over ten years, and I'll always enjoy looking at your work, old and new. I hope that you're doing better than your last journal and that you're staying safe!